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HIII! [02 Feb 2005|03:59pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Hi to everyone! Today, after school (in school...I stayed after) I went on AIM express. I got to talk to WOLFIE! *dies of happiness* I'm pretending to do homework right now. Buahaha. I'm an idiot.

By the way...

I MISS MY CRYSTAL! *cries*

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Fuck him. [01 Feb 2005|02:43pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

My dad is being EXTREMELY antagonistic towards me. And I'm being nothing but cooperative today. I'm not being difficult, I'm not letting my smartass antics get the better of me, I'm working hard on my assignments...and he's being a dickhead. Someone has a case of man-PMS (ahahahaha)!

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I DIDN'T DIE!!! [28 Jan 2005|11:04am]
[ mood | sad ]

Hello, everyone! I told my dad I'm printing out videogame cheats. Just for an excuse to go on so I can update. :D I MISS ALL OF YOU! I really do. Particuarly my sis, Rachelle. *cries*

Okay, well I just decided to update so everyone knows that I didn't die. *waves goodbye*

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[17 Jan 2005|12:26pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Sugar is sweet,
And so are you.
But the roses are wilting,
The violets are dead,
The sugar bowl's empty,
And so is your head.

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Please do it. D: [17 Jan 2005|11:09am]
[ mood | weird ]

WHAT IF FUCKING......
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

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GRRRRRRRRRRR. Enough said. [17 Jan 2005|07:40am]
[ mood | FUCK YOU! ]

I'm so fucking mad right now it isn't funny. IN FRONT OF ME, my parents were tearing through my bag. With no permission at all. At least I wasn't hiding anything in there, I guess. BUT THAT'S NOT THE FUCKING POINT! I swear, I'm just going to stop fucking trying. I don't care anymore. My emotions are a weird mix of vitrolic hate and non-benevolence. Grrrrrrrr.

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All Manson fans. Join my community. [16 Jan 2005|01:36am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

The Marilyn Manson Cult!

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I MADE A COMMUNITY! [16 Jan 2005|01:27am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I MADE A COMMUNITY! *PROUD* :D

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I'm gonna rant and then end with Coma Black! [15 Jan 2005|11:37pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I'm really pissed off at my friend. She found out about my "problems" and was trying to make me feel inferior to her (she won't admit it, I think on a subconscious level)because I'm...uh...a bit lacking in the sanity department. And she treats me as if I'm diseased because I'm so obsessed with Marilyn Manson. She's just being a self-righteous, close-minded, blind, brainwashed biggot. She can just go and be her disposable, Aeropastled self and I'll continue being me.

Coma Black, by Marilyn Manson

My mouth was a crib
And it was growing lies
I didn't know what love was on that day
My heart's a tiny blood clot
I picked at it
It never heals, it never goes away.

I burned all the good things in the Eden Eye
We were too dumb too run, too dead to die.

This was never my world
You took the angel away
I'll kill myself to make everybody pay.

I would have told her then
She was the only thing
That I could love in this dying world
But the simple word
Of love itself
Already died and went away.

I burned all the good things in the Eden Eye
We were too dumb too run, too dead to die.

This was never my world
You took the angel away
I'll kill myself to make everybody pay.

Her heart's a blood-stained egg...
That we didn't handle with care
It's broken and bleeding...
That we could never repair.

<3

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Whoa..haven't updated in such a long time. [12 Jan 2005|03:48pm]
[ mood | disenchanted ]

Okies. I haven't updated in a WHILE. A lot has happened in the time I haven't been updating. This is a really long story, but I'll keep it short. xD On 1/8 (Saturday) I overdosed on aspirin at Battle of the Bands, which caused me to vomit six times. One of them was in the middle of Marshall's, and no one helped me. >_< So I went in the bathroom there with Brittany to get cleaned up, and she helped me out a lot. Then she yelled at the people for not doing anything. They were assholes about it, so we left. And yeah.

And yesterday, I went to my therapist. (Mm, joy.) I despise her with a burning PASSION!!! It's not like I'm gonna tell her anything. And she was being a bitch, too. I was also told I'm going to be put on meds soon. However I'm just going to pretend to take them. I am NOT going to let medication fuck with my mind and change who I am. I mean, who wants a mellow, nice, normal Stephanie? That is the opposite of my personality. A Marilyn Manson song works extremely better than Zoloft EVER would.

I'll update sometime soon...dad's just sort of pissed at me at the time being, so the updates will be somewhat sporadic.

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...grrr. [02 Jan 2005|01:00pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I have to return to hell tomorrow (also known as school). I hate pretty much everyone there (students and teachers), don't even understand it half the time, and it's an unecessary burden on me. I have to work extra-hard at it, too, since I got a horrible report card last term, and my dad was pissed. It's understandable, though, considering I went from a straight-A student to one who's barely passing. But it's just...GRRRRRRR. I'm very behind in math, especially. I mean, I spend my time in there writing interview questions and letters to Marilyn Manson. Even though it's a bit late, THIS is my New Year's resolution: DO A DECENT JOB IN SCHOOL. School is so unecessary now. I'M NOT GOING TO USE HISTORY, ALGEBRA, SCIENCE, AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN SCHOOL I'M NOW LEARNING...IT WON'T BE USED IN THE REAL WORLD. I can see basic math, English, etc. I'm going to use that. That stuff is helpful. But everything else is a no-no. So, school is just another thing that sucks in my life. Marilyn Manson is the only thing that I can love in this dying world (wtf, that sounded a bit emo). Yes, that's from Coma Black. xD

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The video for (s)AINT=awesome. [01 Jan 2005|11:12pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

When I first heard the song (s)AINT in 2003, I felt it was a great song, but not Marilyn Manson's best. But the video is fucking awesome. This is what it entails:

*Bondage.
*Self-mutilation.
*Snorting cocaine.
*Hot sex scenes.
*Hot GAY sex scenes.
*Gay threesomes.
*Vomiting.
*Masturbation.

...how can you NOT love it?

It's true, but also a shame that the video is a reflection of the world we're living in.

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2005 is boring so far. [01 Jan 2005|01:32pm]
[ mood | blah ]

So. 2005 has been quite uneventful so far. What I did in the New Year:

1. Said “rabbit” (Amber told me that it was good luck if you said it first thing in the New Year) when the clock struck 12.
2. Made sure I was looking at Mr. Manson when the clock struck 12.
3. Took the “How Well Do You Know Marilyn Manson?” quiz. (Look at my second-most recent entry for my results.)
4. Stared at nude Marilyn Manson pictures.
5. Met someone who’s uber-cool (who is ALSO a Manson fan) who lives in the same state as I do, named Ariana.
6. Nana forced me to get offline.
7. Slept until quarter to one.
8. Remained on the couch for a bit.
9. Got up to update this LJ.


This is way too much information for all of you non-MM fans, but he is very, very, very, very well-endowed. *giggle* And he’s flawless. (in my opinion, at least.) He’s so fucking brilliant and beautiful and awesome.

He’s so fucking…perfect.

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First quiz of the new year! :D [01 Jan 2005|12:30am]
[ mood | giddy ]

Take the quiz: "Think You Know Marilyn Manson?"

Yes
Yes! You know Marilyn Manson extremely well...you're not just a fan, you're an expert! Congratulations!

YAY.

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I know it's the fourth time, but oh fucking WELL :o [31 Dec 2004|02:19pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Hello. I need a life. This is the fourth entry I made today. xD I'm happy at the moment because Rachelle is online (my friend from FL who I will one day meet)! She's my only friend who puts up with my non-stop babbling about Mr. Manson (who, by the way, is my sex slave). Speaking of my sex slave, I just realized something. Our initials, put together, are S & M. XDDDD Hehehehehehehe. Yesterday I sang a song to my new MM poster. You know, that song called "I Touch Myself". (lmao) Just in case you don't, these are some of the lyrics: "I don't want anybody else! Because when I think about you I touch myself!" Hahahaha. I need a life. Big time. MAYBE if I'm productive I can become famous and he'll then know who I am, then leave Dita for me. Hehehehehehehehe.

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Wolfie rawks. XD [31 Dec 2004|10:18am]
[ mood | bored ]

XEbil MokiX: Do you know what I always wonder? o_O
faux jubilance: ?
XEbil MokiX: How the hell do they know what blood type the characteres are? o__O I mean, does it really matter? o___o;;
faux jubilance: I know!
faux jubilance: That bothers me.
XEbil MokiX: Do they like, stab the paper to death? o_o
faux jubilance: XDDDD!

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Do it, BIATCH! [31 Dec 2004|09:00am]
[ mood | lethargic ]

WHAT IF FUCKING......
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

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It's New Year's fucking Eve. Woot! [31 Dec 2004|08:25am]
[ mood | moody ]

Whoo-hoo. It's New Year's motherfucking Eve! I'm going to try and be good and non-emo today. Last night I randomly grew depressed and it escalated into suicidal feelings, then crying, and bleh. So my night wasn't the best. Then I watched Anchorman and things were better. XDD

Brian: ...where are you?
Ron: *cries and wails* I'M IN A GLASS CASE OF EMOTION!!! [really in a payphone booth]

La de da da. I'm bored. Still debating on whether to post pics or not. Bye.

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Quizzes! [30 Dec 2004|07:57am]
[ mood | bored as fuck ]

I have too much time on my hands. o_o

I AM 31% WHITE TRASH!
31% WHITE TRASH
The white trash in my blood will not keep me from becoming a doctor or a lawyer, but it will keep me from a good haircut and any sort of fashion sense.


I AM 44% HIPPIE!
44% HIPPIE
I need to step away from the tie-dye. I smell too good to be a hippie and my dad is probably a cop. Being a hippie is not a fashion craze, man. It was a way of life, in the 60’s, man.


I AM 92% ASSHOLE/BITCH!
92% ASSHOLE/BITCH
I am one of those people that love to hear the sound of their voice. That and my lousy attitude make for a mixture as toxic next-day-mexican-dinner-ass-drip.


I AM 79% EVIL GENIUS!
79% EVIL GENIUS
I am pure evil. I lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and I will not rest until all living souls bend to my will.


I AM 77% TORTURED ARTIST!
77% TORTURED ARTIST
Angst, and bitter resentment drive me to create works that not a single idot will ever come close to grasping. Ah, the raw and unforgiving statements that bleed from my soul are so misunderstood.


I AM 55% SKA!
55% SKA
Well, maybe I'm trying too hard, maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I shouldn't forget my roots, and remember that punk and reggae wouldn't exist without ska.


I AM 73% GRUNGE!
73% GRUNGE
I am pretty dirty, all right and, I reek of teen spirit... I would sell my own children for a moldy hotpocket, man.


I AM 47% RAVER!
47% RAVER
Well, I may have been to a rave. I probably know a bunch of ravers, but they may think of me as an outsider. That's okay, at least I am not a complete freak.


I AM 77% METAL HEAD!
77% METAL HEAD
I was born with the mark of the beast on my forehead and an axe in my arms. I am the god of all things metal! Now if only I could get my parents to give me back my car keys.....


I AM 52% EMO!
52% EMO
Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.


I AM 71% GOTH!
71% GOTH
Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself.


I AM 57% GEEK!
57% GEEK
Nerd, Freak, Geek, Dweeb. Sound familiar? That's okay, cause I will be the richest person at my 15th year high school reunion. If a "con" isn't happening that weekend.


I AM 83% INTERNET ADDICT!
83% INTERNET ADDICT
Whoa, am I ever addicted! I'm probably a little over weight with lots of acne, feeling lost, and alone, trying to escape from my sorry life with an internet life. I must crawl outta the basement, see


I AM 54% PUNK ROCK!
54% PUNK ROCK
The intelligent punk. Tuff and Smart. I may be able to maintain a train of thought long enough... What the fuck was I talking about?


Wheeeee. ^_^
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Whoo-hoo, I went to the mall. [30 Dec 2004|06:07am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Last night, I went to the mall.
List of things I bought:
1. ReminiScent (it's a perfume...so good! ^^)
2. A box of chocolate Pocky! X3
3. A ton of manga. (too lazy to type which ones. >.>)
4. Pins! (my favorite one is the David Bowie one. >3 Or the one with Bush on it that says, "Mad cowboy disease!")
5. Earrings.

..and there was something I almost bought. It was a skirt, and I really liked it, but it costed $45! O_o Oh well. I'll live.

Right now, I'm watching Run Lola Run. Man, that movie kicks ass.

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